Sooo, I’ve been telling myself ever since I was in sixth grade that I would lose weight and be healthy. At that time, my father had been diagnosed with colon cancer for 3 years and I wanted to prevent myself from this disease, but you know how it goes, I say to myself, “Ok, I’ll start tomorrow,” or “this will be last chip,” but it never happens and in a few days I’m back where I’m started, feeling sluggish, gross, and chilling with a new pimple on my face. In no way shape or form am I saying that I hate my body, in fact, I believe that there’s more to love but honestly, I just want to be healthy. I want to be able to join my friends when they want to participate in physical events or maybe even run a
marathon half-marathon 5k (lol who am I kidding ;)) I always claim to know a lot about nutrition but I definitely don’t show it by the way I eat and exercise (a.k.a my LACK of exercise).
It really struck a chord with me when I recently went dress shopping. Let me start my saying that I love fashion, (duh.. that’s why I’m on tumblr) but I never actually get to properly show my love for fashion because of the limited styles that I have. After all, most of what looks good isn’t made for those in the double digits! Anyways, I went dress shopping and dress after dress after dress wouldn’t fit. And you might be saying, “just size up,” but I had already done so anticipating my recent “freshman 15” weight gain. Yet, the dresses, one size bigger than my normal still wouldn’t fit. I was so embarrassed dragging my boyfriend around with nothing to show for it but my disappointed self-loathing face. Don’t worry guys, I did eventually find a dress and here I am pictured with it, looking all romantic-y :) (only asian ftw!)
So this time I am making a promise to not only myself but the rest of the world/ tumblr community, that I will be fit and healthy by this time next year! Yessss its a long shot, like a New Year’s Resolution but in May, but I need your help for my success! I want to be healthy for the rest of my life, to be able to enjoy my life with the least amount of health issues possible.
My father left this world when he was 51, leaving behind two kids who were 14 and 16. But I want to live to be 100, leaving behind kids that are at least in their 70s!
Today is when I’m starting and forever is when it’ll end.
-A.L.L. April 30, 2012